{"id":11,"date":"2007-11-13T19:14:00","date_gmt":"2007-11-14T02:14:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/?p=11"},"modified":"2007-11-13T19:14:00","modified_gmt":"2007-11-14T02:14:00","slug":"empatie-sau-cum-dracu-i-o-fi-zicand","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/2007\/11\/empatie-sau-cum-dracu-i-o-fi-zicand\/","title":{"rendered":"Empatie sau cum dracu i-o fi zic\u00e2nd .."},"content":{"rendered":"
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Cele ce urmeaz\u0103 nu trebuie neap\u0103rat crezute. Actually, mi se rupe. I only deliver a message there.<\/p>\n

Mul\u0163i mi-au spus c\u0103-s o fiin\u0163\u0103 alunecoas\u0103, slippery, pe care cu greu o “atingi”. Chestie total adev\u0103rat\u0103; dac\u0103 este ceva ce n-am f\u0103cut vreodat\u0103, este s\u0103-mi fi dest\u0103inuit via\u0163a cuiva, sau episoadele mai pu\u0163in pl\u0103cute. \u00cent\u00e2mpl\u0103tor, am destul de multe, \u015fi prefer s\u0103 le \u0163in pentru mine. Sau cel pu\u0163in a\u015fa preferam ..<\/p>\n

Ca orice lucru \u00een via\u0163a asta, orice are o parte bun\u0103 \u015fi una proast\u0103; chiar \u015fi rahaturile. La 7 ani, p\u0103rin\u0163ii mei au divor\u0163at, din motive care-mi scap\u0103 \u015fi pe care ar fi cazul s\u0103 le clarific cu tata, at some point in time. But we’ll get back to that. \u00cen \u015fcoala primar\u0103 am locuit, \u00eempreun\u0103 cu mama, la bunica, \u00een centrul ora\u015fului. Idilic\u0103 priveli\u015fte, doar c\u0103 bunic\u0103-mea a fost \u015fi este o scorpie cu aere de doamnn\u0103. Pentru c\u0103 a fost transplantat\u0103 la 20 de ani direct \u00een buricul ora\u015fului, din satul ei natal. \u015ei pentru c\u0103 mentalitatea rural\u0103 legat\u0103 de familie este o mocirl\u0103 greu de imaginat pentru un observator din afara.<\/p>\n

Mama a crescut tot \u00een centru, \u00eentr-o atmosfer\u0103 tensionat\u0103; gestul plec\u0103rii la casa ei a fost ca o gur\u0103 de aer proasp\u0103t. Ei bine, imagineaz\u0103-\u0163i dou\u0103 fiin\u0163e pe care teoretic trebuie s\u0103 le iube\u015fti, cert\u00e2ndu-se zilnic — pe chestii triviale; iar c\u00e2teodat\u0103 s\u0103 se vorbeasc\u0103 despre tine la persoana a IIIa, cu tine de fa\u0163\u0103, \u015fi nu tocmai pl\u0103cut.<\/p>\n

F\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 vreau, am dezvoltat un “radar” pentru sentimente. Le simt, le presimt plutind \u00een aer, m\u0103 acorderz pentru a le capta; chiar glumeam \u00eentr-o vreme, c\u0103 \u015ftiu s\u0103 fug cu 30 de secunde \u00eenainte s\u0103 se lase cu violen\u0163\u0103 fizic\u0103, \u015fi c\u0103 \u015ftiu s\u0103 provoc o b\u0103taie doar specul\u00e2nd momentul de \u00eencordare maxim\u0103. \u015etiu, c\u00e2nd intru \u00eentr-o camer\u0103, dac\u0103 acolo e cineva trist, cineva nervos, cineva sup\u0103rat, cineva care se sfie\u015fte, cineva somnoros. C\u00e2teodat\u0103, reu\u015fesc chiar s\u0103 canalizez prin mine diverse sentimente spre infinit, s\u0103-l ajut pe “posesor” s\u0103 scape de ele. Ceea ce \u00eemi place s\u0103 fac.<\/p>\n

\u00cens\u0103 nu \u015ftiu cum s\u0103 opresc sim\u0163ul \u0103sta. Sunt nenum\u0103rate orele de \u015fcoal\u0103 la care efectiv n-am putut fi atent, pentru c\u0103 \u00eemi era colega de banc\u0103 somnoroas\u0103, sau nervoas\u0103. G\u00e2ndurile \u015fi tr\u0103irile celorlal\u0163i sunt ca un zgomot de fond mereu prezent, care se intensific\u0103 \u00een raport cu distan\u0163a fizic\u0103 \u00eentre noi. Am \u00eencercat s\u0103 \u00eenchid chackra a doua, s\u0103 nu m\u0103 transform \u00eentr-un receptor, \u00eens\u0103 n-am reu\u015fit. Singura mea sc\u0103pare, singura, sunt zilele mele fericite — \u00een alea, c\u00e2nd Lumina z\u00e2mbe\u015fte de diminea\u0163\u0103, oric\u00e2t de trist ai fi l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine, te \u00eenviorezi; am destul\u0103 fericire \u00eenc\u00e2t s\u0103 dau \u015fi altora.<\/p>\n

Mi-am propus ca zilele luminoase s\u0103 fie mai dese \u00een calendarul meu. \u015ei \u00een continuare a\u015ftept o \u00eencercare de explica\u0163ie, if there is any.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Cele ce urmeaz\u0103 nu trebuie neap\u0103rat crezute. Actually, mi se rupe. I only deliver a message there. Mul\u0163i mi-au spus c\u0103-s o fiin\u0163\u0103 alunecoas\u0103, slippery, pe care cu greu o “atingi”. Chestie total adev\u0103rat\u0103; dac\u0103 este ceva ce n-am f\u0103cut vreodat\u0103, este s\u0103-mi fi dest\u0103inuit via\u0163a cuiva, sau episoadele mai pu\u0163in pl\u0103cute. \u00cent\u00e2mpl\u0103tor, am destul …<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-11","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-fara","7":"anons"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=11"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=11"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=11"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=11"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}