{"id":141,"date":"2008-06-01T01:50:00","date_gmt":"2008-05-31T23:50:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/?p=141"},"modified":"2010-01-04T04:04:49","modified_gmt":"2010-01-04T02:04:49","slug":"somnul","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/2008\/06\/somnul\/","title":{"rendered":"Somnul."},"content":{"rendered":"
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Am t<\/span>r\u0103it somnul de veci. O c\u0103l\u0103torie \u00een tern, o adormire a sim\u0163urilor. P\u0103\u015feam spre Niciunde, c\u0103utam harta spre Nic\u0103ieri, g\u0103seam pe Nimeni. P\u00e2n\u0103 \u015fi ecoul murise demult, de nesomn \u015fi b\u0103tr\u00e2ne\u0163e.<\/o:p><\/span><\/p>\n

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Viet\u0103\u0163i mici \u00eemi mi\u015funau pe la picioare, prin hum\u0103 \u015fi umezeal\u0103. Atmosfera \u00eens\u0103\u015fi plutea tulburiu \u00een fa\u0163a ochilor, \u00ceN ochi, duhnind a p\u00e2clos \u015fi st\u0103tut. Arar izbucnea c\u00e2te un strig\u0103t de agonie, repede \u015fi lacom \u00eenghi\u0163it de Necuprinsul ce ne \u00eembr\u0103\u0163i\u015fa cald. Cald \u015fi acru, ca o pizd\u0103 nesp\u0103lat\u0103, trepida potrivnic vie\u0163ii. Praful istoriei \u00eemb\u00e2csea atmosfera p\u00e2n\u0103 la irespirabilitate. C\u00e2nd \u015fi c\u00e2nd, plante cu gura c\u0103scat\u0103, sugeau din praf, v\u0103rs\u00e2nd sev\u0103 pe p\u0103m\u00e2nt. A\u015f fi jurat c\u0103 vomit\u0103 verde.<\/o:p><\/span><\/p>\n

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Prin vis am mers, ne\u015ftiind de mine. Fiin\u0163am cu instinctul, sila de a atinge p\u0103m\u00e2ntul m\u0103 \u0163inea treaz. \u00cemi \u015fi vedeam corpul \u00eemb\u0103lo\u015fat de viermi, putrezit de vreme, descompus de umezeala putrid\u0103 \u015fi de praful p\u0103stos. Sim\u0163eam v\u00e2ntul \u015fuier\u00e2nd parc\u0103 prin mine, r\u0103v\u0103\u015findu-mi m\u0103runtaiele \u015fi r\u0103scolindu-mi ma\u0163ele. Ce dracu am m\u00e2ncat? \u00ce\u0163i jur c-a\u015f vomita dac\u0103 mi-a\u015f aminti. Cred c\u0103 am avut diaree, cald\u0103 \u015fi mult\u0103, sorbit\u0103 ca o ploaie, cu nesa\u0163, de p\u0103m\u00e2ntul \u0103sta tenebros.<\/o:p><\/span><\/p>\n

Soarele abia \u00eel z\u0103ream. Ocoleam liziera unei p\u0103duri, merg\u00e2nd f\u0103r\u0103 \u0163int\u0103 precis\u0103. Ai c\u0103utat vreodat\u0103 cap\u0103tul lui Nic\u0103ieri? Fiarele m\u0103 priveau cu ochi nehali\u0163i din p\u0103dure, \u00eens\u0103 o putere ne\u015ftiut\u0103 le \u0163inea \u00eentre copacii putrezi. Un chibrit aprins acolo ar fi n\u0103ruit lumea \u00eentreag\u0103. \u00cen\u0163elege-m\u0103, nu de moarte \u00eemi era team\u0103, era la fel de indiferent\u0103 ca un pi\u015fat; dar mi-ar fi fost sc\u00e2rb\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 \u015ftiu \u00eengropat \u00een lumea aia sc\u00e2rnav\u0103. Mergeam ca s\u0103 nu stau, orbec\u0103ind dup\u0103 ie\u015firea care nu \u015ftiam cum arat\u0103. Ajunsesem s\u0103-mi fie sc\u00e2rb\u0103 de mine, de pielea nesp\u0103lat\u0103, de hainele cu care m\u0103 \u015ftersesem la cur; murind acolo, m-a\u015f fi asimilat lor. Ultima parte vie din sufletul meu, m\u0103 zorea s\u0103 ajung dracului Acas\u0103 ….<\/o:p><\/span><\/p>\n

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De la o vreme, fream\u0103tul ne\u015ftiut a t\u0103cut, \u015fi aerul a \u00eenceput s\u0103 prind\u0103 claritate. Dinspre mine, am \u00eenceput s\u0103 privesc \u015fi \u00eenafar\u0103. Se \u00eenchegau o potec\u0103 \u015fi-o urcare. \u00cen spatele meu se \u00eentindea Marea Mla\u015ftin\u0103, iar mie \u00eemi era fric\u0103 s\u0103-mi privesc fiin\u0163a resping\u0103toare. V\u00e2ntul \u015fi el b\u0103tea voios prin zdren\u0163ele mele.<\/o:p><\/span><\/p>\n

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Aici ceva s-a rupt \u00een mine \u2013 m-am trezit la poalele unei st\u00e2nci. Dormisem. Aerul era mai tare, rece, \u00eemb\u0103t\u0103tor. Genunchii m\u0103 dureau oleac\u0103, iar penuria m\u00e2lului \u00eemi sl\u0103bise tot; doar r\u00e2njetul de fiar\u0103 mi-l mai sim\u0163eam. De\u015fi odihnit, respiram greu \u015fi ochii m\u0103 dureau. Privire scurt\u0103, din spate de pe potec\u0103, ochi curio\u015fi sim\u0163eam sfredelindu-m\u0103, ascu\u0163ind gheare \u2013cale de \u00eentoarcere nu aveam. Am \u00eenceput cea mai grea alergare a vie\u0163ii mele; pe recii bolovani mi-am rupt ultimul \u0163ol, alergam bezmetic \u015fi incoerent, doar aerul tare m\u0103 \u0163inea; m-am pr\u0103v\u0103lit \u00een genunchi, m-am ridicat zdrelit. Sus pe creast\u0103 am ajuns t\u00e2r\u00e2\u015f \u015fi gol, a\u015fa cum m\u0103 f\u0103cuse mama. Sub mine se vedea str\u0103veziul norilor, \u00eenvolburarea apelor, zborul molcom al condorilor, iar departe de tot, cadrilaterul binecunoscut al p\u0103\u015funilor.
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Eram singur, la mama dracului \u00een praznic, \u015fi totu\u015fi miezul vie\u0163uirii p\u0103rea la o \u00eentindere de bra\u0163 distan\u0163\u0103. M\u0103 chema.<\/o:p><\/span><\/p>\n

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O \u00eembr\u00e2ncire scurt\u0103, a mea de c\u0103tre mine, sau a altuia. Am c\u0103zut de pe buza st\u00e2ncii, \u00een h\u0103ul c\u0103scat peste mine \u015fi sub mine, \u00eentre cer \u015fi p\u0103m\u00e2nt. Urlam din to\u0163i r\u0103runchii, cu disperare, sim\u0163indu-m\u0103 fragil ca un atom, apropiindu-m\u0103 de Marea Dezmembrare. N-am mai c\u0103zut at\u00e2t de \u00eendelung niciodat\u0103, tot at\u00e2tea clipe tr\u0103ite una c\u00e2te una, sim\u0163ite at\u00e2t de precis \u00een toate fibrele mele, la milisecund\u0103.. De la un moment, am sim\u0163it norii burni\u0163\u00e2nd u\u015for, iar de pe mine jegul se desprindea cu-ncetul. Ore sau ani, n-a\u015f \u015fti s\u0103 spun, c\u0103ci deodat\u0103 am izbit cap\u0103tul, \u015fi-am continuat s\u0103 cad, s\u0103 cad pe loc, s\u0103 cad \u00ceN MINE. Aerul \u00eel sim\u0163eam dulce pe mine, ca un prunc.<\/o:p><\/span><\/p>\n

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Am c\u0103zut fizic \u00een mine, \u015f-apoi rostogol pe podea. Alerg\u00e2nd afar\u0103, m-o izbit c\u0103ldura soarelui \u015fi aerul z\u00e2mbind prietenos, p\u0103m\u00e2ntul aspru \u015fi c\u0103ldu\u0163 la atingere. \u00cemi venea cu un hap mare s\u0103 \u00eenghit satul \u015fi lumea … eram Acas\u0103, \u00een Hainele Mele, \u00een Lumea Mea.<\/span><\/p>\n

[ as written on 08.01.2007 , ascuns\u0103 mai demult, redescoperit\u0103 ast\u0103zi. ]<\/span><\/p>\n

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Am tr\u0103it somnul de veci. O c\u0103l\u0103torie \u00een tern, o adormire a sim\u0163urilor. P\u0103\u015feam spre Niciunde, c\u0103utam harta spre Nic\u0103ieri, g\u0103seam pe Nimeni. P\u00e2n\u0103 \u015fi ecoul murise demult, de nesomn \u015fi b\u0103tr\u00e2ne\u0163e. Viet\u0103\u0163i mici \u00eemi mi\u015funau pe la picioare, prin hum\u0103 \u015fi umezeal\u0103. Atmosfera \u00eens\u0103\u015fi plutea tulburiu \u00een fa\u0163a ochilor, \u00ceN ochi, duhnind a p\u00e2clos …<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-141","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","6":"category-fara","7":"anons"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/141","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=141"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/141\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":787,"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/141\/revisions\/787"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=141"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=141"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/daimon.me\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=141"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}